YOU WILL SUCK THE LIFE OUT OF ME

I've just finished eclipse.
I've pre-ordered breaking dawn and brisingr.
I've found out my friend's mother is dying.

I'm listening to "Time is Running Out" by Muse on repeat right now. This song IS Twilight, there's no doubt about that. It makes me extremely comforted though it's not like i deserve to be comforted or happy. Well, actually I'm not happy, I'm only comfortable. I'm okay with being in turmoil like this. That's hyperbolic actually, it's not turmoil, it's just many many things going on most of which I'm ignoring. I like how I keep going back on what I'm saying, I'm downplaying everything about myself right now.

I'm going to put the lyrics in here because I really would like to bring this somehow into my life even if it's some sort of awkward blog that no one reads and I could honestly care less if anyone does.

TIME IS RUNNING OUT - MUSE
i think i'm drowning
asphyxiated
i want to break the spell that you've created
you're something beautiful
a contradiction
i want to play the game i want the friction
you will be the death of me
yeah you will be the death of me
bury it i won't le you bury it
i won't let you smother it i won't let you murder it
our time running out
our time is running out
you can't push it underground you can't stop it screaming out
i wanted freedom
bound and restricted
i tried to give you up but i'm addicted
now that you know i'm scrapped
sets off elation
you never dream of breaking this fixation
you will squeeze the life out of me
and bury it i won't let you bury it
i won't let you smother it i won't let you murder it
our time is running out
our time is running out
you can't push it underground you can't stop it screaming out
how did it come to this
yeah you will suck the life out of me
bury it i won't let you bury it
i won't let you smother it i won't let you murder it
our time is running out
our time is running out
you can't push it underground you can't stop it screaming out
how did it come to this


I feel a lot better getting that out there.