"YOU ARE EXACTLY MY BRAND OF HEROIN"

I'm rereading Twilight, almost done with it. I'm at the part where the Cullens and Bella are playing baseball and James, Victoria, and Laurent come inquisitively into the field. DORAMAAA. After this I will reread New Moon and Eclipse, and by reread I mean skip the stupid parts with stupid Jacob and just read the good parts with Edward. IF YOU HAVE EDWARD WHY DO YOU NEED JACOB, BELLA? fucking idiot.

Anyways

Waiting for Nabari no Ou 15 to come out subtitled is killing me. Like, I already know what happens and all, I read pretty far into the future, but I still love this series so much it boggles my mind. Also, I'm bored with Tsubasa and xxxHOLiC, and that makes me sad. Tsubasa is great and all but lately it's been so slow, maybe that's with CLAMP taking such a long break, idk, but I really was hoping for either a few more color pages or a longer chapitre with their return... whatever.

I watched half an episode of The OC and a full episode of Dresden Files today. It was great. It was such a blast from the past, along with me skipping class this morning. I'm such a failure, it's awesome.

EDWARD CULLEN AND THE GOBLET OF ETERNAL LOVE

i hate uv cherry. it's sick. it's disgusting. it tastes like rancid cough syrup. so why would i buy a bottle off my friend when they no longer wanted it? i needed something and 1/3 of a bottle of bacardi razz isn't enough.

i need to stop talking about that.


i'm watching harry potter and the goblet of fire and pretending that cedric diggory is actually edward cullen. it's working quite well though i think that edward is much more attractive than cedric. it's probably because this movie is a few years old so even though technically they're supposed to be the same age the guy who plays them looks older therefore more my age. actually, edward is only 17 in appearance which for him is a totally great age to be. omg he's on the screen right now he's so fucking hot and his hair makes me want to cry it's so cute.

edward cullen
...bite me


anyways, i hope that bella stays with him FOREVER in breaking dawn. i hate jacob and i'll be pissed ttm if she decides to go with him. wtf he's a fucking jerk and HE'S NOT EDWARD lskdjflasdkjf anyways, i will totally sport my TEAM EDWARD shirt forever and i'm going to wear it when i pick up the book. hopefully i can get some friends to go to the midnight release with me. that would be stellar. anyways, bella needs to turn into a vamp soon so that she doesn't get too old appearance-wise for edward. actually the fact that he looks like that at 17 is totally lucky for him since a lot of 17 year old guys and even girls look hardly mature. my friends may have looked normal back then but when i look at pictures of them like that i definitely chuckle.

i can't handle how much i'm obsessing about the twilight series and edward cullen

YOU WILL SUCK THE LIFE OUT OF ME

I've just finished eclipse.
I've pre-ordered breaking dawn and brisingr.
I've found out my friend's mother is dying.

I'm listening to "Time is Running Out" by Muse on repeat right now. This song IS Twilight, there's no doubt about that. It makes me extremely comforted though it's not like i deserve to be comforted or happy. Well, actually I'm not happy, I'm only comfortable. I'm okay with being in turmoil like this. That's hyperbolic actually, it's not turmoil, it's just many many things going on most of which I'm ignoring. I like how I keep going back on what I'm saying, I'm downplaying everything about myself right now.

I'm going to put the lyrics in here because I really would like to bring this somehow into my life even if it's some sort of awkward blog that no one reads and I could honestly care less if anyone does.

TIME IS RUNNING OUT - MUSE
i think i'm drowning
asphyxiated
i want to break the spell that you've created
you're something beautiful
a contradiction
i want to play the game i want the friction
you will be the death of me
yeah you will be the death of me
bury it i won't le you bury it
i won't let you smother it i won't let you murder it
our time running out
our time is running out
you can't push it underground you can't stop it screaming out
i wanted freedom
bound and restricted
i tried to give you up but i'm addicted
now that you know i'm scrapped
sets off elation
you never dream of breaking this fixation
you will squeeze the life out of me
and bury it i won't let you bury it
i won't let you smother it i won't let you murder it
our time is running out
our time is running out
you can't push it underground you can't stop it screaming out
how did it come to this
yeah you will suck the life out of me
bury it i won't let you bury it
i won't let you smother it i won't let you murder it
our time is running out
our time is running out
you can't push it underground you can't stop it screaming out
how did it come to this


I feel a lot better getting that out there.

NABARI NO OU 13

I love this show, even more so than when it first started. But I feel bad sometimes because lately while watching it I find myself going "you guys just need to make out" more than once per episode while we're having quality Yoite and Miharu bonding time. And I'm honestly not a fan of that whole type of thing, I just am so in love with them and their relationship and just pretty much everything about them that I cannot resist.

So this last episode was ridiculously infuriating, fucking Koga students I wanted to jack them all in the face (though everyone else did that first for me haha). I hate when there are misconceived situations, OMFG WHAT DID YOU DO TO OUR STUDENT FRIENDZZ? OHEMGEE THEY HURT US FIRST! LYKE NO WAYZ! Pretty much that's how I felt, but it was a good change since the other Koga used that as an opportunity to attack our favorite kids? I guess, I was kind of confused during that part.

I just accidentally (sort of) read more about Yoite's past, and holy fuck I'm fascinated.

Anyways, everyone's getting attacked, Yukimi's all crazed (something's up with his eyes... that was weird I think) and Raikou and him go off to get the kinjutsu scroll. If that scroll saves Yoite I would be so happy.

On a related note, I can't decide if I want to read the manga and get ahead of the anime... I really want to know what happens next because I love this series so much, but I like being constantly interested in animes. In manga I'll just skip ahead until I find something better, but I have a history of dropping anime where I already read the manga (Vampire Knight, xxxHolic, Shugo Chara, Special A, Spiral... blah blah). I also need to study, I have a test in about 8 hours... fuck my life

I love Nabari no Ou and Yoite and Miharu.
End of story